“She sets her heart upon a nation and takes it as her own, carrying it within her. She labors there to plant the living vines. She wraps herself in strength, might, and power in all her works. She tastes and experiences a better substance, and her shining light will not be extinguished, no matter how dark the night.”
Proverbs 31:16-18 TPT
To my beautiful Mama: Thank you. Thank you for teaching me how to be courageous, even when it seemed scary... How to persevere, when all I wanted to do was quit.... Thank you for loving me so much that you always challenged me to become better. Thank you for listening to me cry and thank you for comforting me when I thought my world was falling apart. Thank you for being tough and thank you for being soft. Thank you for showing me the importance of independence and that strength can be a very feminine quality. Thank you for showing me what a woman is suppose to be. I love you with all my heart. Thank you Mama, for being you 😘❤️ Happy Mother’s Day.
Psalms 116, I’m Saved. “I am passionately in love with God because he listens to me. He hears my prayers and answers them. As long as I live I’ll keep praying to him, for he stoops down to listen to my heart’s cry. Death once stared me in the face, and I was close to slipping into its dark shadows. I was terrified and overcome with sorrow. I cried out to the Lord, “God, come and save me!” He was so kind, so gracious to me. Because of his passion toward me, he made everything right and he restored me. So I’ve learned from my experience that God protects the childlike and humble ones. For I was broken and brought low, but he answered me and came to my rescue! Now I can say to myself and to all, “Relax and rest, be confident and serene, for the Lord rewards fully those who simply trust in him.” God has rescued my soul from death’s fear and dried my eyes of many tears. He’s kept my feet firmly on his path and strengthened me so that I may please him and live my life before him in his life-giving light. Even when it seems I’m surrounded by many liars and my own fears, and though I’m hurting in my suffering and trauma, I still stay faithful to God and speak words of faith.
So now, what can I ever give back to God to repay him for the blessings he’s poured out on me? I will lift up his cup of salvation and praise him extravagantly for all that he’s done for me. I will fulfill the promise I made to God in the presence of his gathered people. When one of God’s holy lovers dies, it is costly to the Lord, touching his heart. Lord, because I am your loving servant, you have broken open my life and freed me from my chains. Now I’ll worship you passionately and bring to you my sacrifice of praise, drenched with thanksgiving! I’ll keep my promise to you, God, in the presence of your gathered people, just like I said I would. I will worship you here in your living presence, in the temple in Jerusalem. I will worship and sing hallelujah, for I praise you, Lord!”
November 14, 2018 was the day in which I am forever marked by God, this was the day he saved me out of the hell I was living in and I was born again, this was the day I experienced the fullness of his love. He spoke to me and as a result I picked up my cross and followed him, leaving behind everything I had always been to find out who I was meant to be. My flesh had died and I had become alive in Him. I didn’t grow up in the church and my idea of God was whatever I wanted it to be, whatever fit my lifestyle best. I put him in the ‘religious’ category and tried to stay as far away from that as possible. Little did I know the spirituality of it all, the tangibility of his power! His ability to take away the pain, shame, heartbreak, disappoint, stress, addiction, all of the inner workings of a mans suffering, and then fill us with his love and peace bringing us to a perpetual state of rest. He died for us so that we may be free. Through him I am free from the limitations of this world and able to explore the limitlessness of heavenly pleasures. If life has taught me anything, it is that freedom is everything and true freedom can only come through truth. These videos are my commitment and surrender to carry that truth everywhere I go from now until eternity. At 3am, with some help from my fellow LCU brothers and sisters, I died to sin and was born again in him. For I, the bride, have made myself ready, I vow to exalt Him in everything I do from this day forward. I am a daughter and I am royalty, as we were all created to be. So I thank you Lord for breathing life back into me. LOVE is everything! #baptised#freepeoplefreepeople#breakingreligion#thebibleisdope#spiritualenlightening#holyspiritcome#mygodisthegodoflight#mygodisthebreakerofchains#mygodistheonetruegod#LCU#somuchLOVE
2018 in a Nutshell. It’s been an insane year to say the least... I’m so grateful for all the people who have played a part in this journey. 😌❤️ I’m looking up and feel ready to discover what 2019 holds. I can feel it’s something great 😉 #maineventsinchronologicalorder
Posted at: 2018-12-21 13:13:52
The interlude between the old and the new, purgatory if you will.
As I pass from what I’ve always been to who I am becoming, I am confident that who she is will be far greater than anyone I could have ever imagined on my own. On December 19, 2018 I resigned from Boston Ballet. My time as a dancer has expired and a new path has been revealed. I’m learning that sometimes you have to walk away from something good, to find something true. And much like familiarity breeds contempt, I can’t grow without the sun. Much of the conflict within myself is derived from a lack of love for dancing accompanied by my great love for the art form itself. I’ve accomplished so much so young and will be forever grateful, but at the end of the day all the success and all the achievement will never bring me what it is that I truly seek, love. There can only be love where freewill is found, and where you find freedom there must be choice. For me, Ballet was never my choice, but an obligation of sorts. An obligation to the people who surrounded me and sticking to it was a means of doing justice for my ‘talent’. What’s ironic is that there can never be justice where there is a lie. However, I wouldn’t have done a single thing different, the opportunities I have received and experiences that this life has brought me, and taught me, are completely my own. That is something I will always hold dear to my heart. It’s time for me to let go of what I’ve let define me for as long as I can remember and recognize what it is that I’ve always been. For the first time in my life, I have internal peace and that is something no one can take from me. So, here I go.... Hopeful and curious as to where this life might lead me next.
P.S. I have so much love for the wonderful staff and dancers at Boston Ballet for greeting this decision with so much grace. I want to thank everyone who has supported me and expressed their love to me during this hard decision. ❤️😘🥰 I love you all!!! #notjustanewchapter#itsanewbook#newbeginnings#saved#roadtriptojesusbeginstoday#love#somuchistocomeofthis#readytolearn#hereitgoes